discouraged

I am so discouraged. Work is overwhelming and I'm tired.

My personal life is stressful. I feel sick to my stomach all the time.

I can't say why, but I feel betrayed by a friend. I am hurt. I am disappointed. And confused. And sad.

I hate money - all the complications that come with it - or the lack of it. And I hate that I need it, but don't have enough of it. And yet, here I am, still working my 40 hours a week, watching my baby's life fly by and missing most of it. I did the math and by the time Elijah is 18, if I keep working full time, I will have missed over 4 years of his life.